Dear 10-Year-Old Self,
Before you ask me when you have your first kiss or if you’ll ever have a boyfriend, I need to tell you some more important stuff first. What’s more important than a first kiss, you ask? Plenty.
First of all, don’t let that kid in your class, Danny, who called you fat, make you self-consciously wear oversized sweatshirts for the next four years to hide your body. That kid is horrible and years from now he will be boring and bald and trying to get in touch with you to come to the set of the TV show you work on. No, you don’t work on Cheers. That show’s not on the air anymore. That would’ve been awesome, though.
Another thing: Say thank you, always. Gratitude is the closest thing to beauty manifested in an emotion. When you’re grateful, people are attracted to you.
Also: Make sure you appreciate Mom and Dad. Yes, they never seem to let you do anything now except read books. Once you turn 18 you’ll never get to live with them again, and you’ll live far away, and you will miss them so much it hurts.
Next: Learn forgiveness and bestow it generously.
Finally: Don’t let anyone give you any crap. Mastering a balance of these last two will take you a lifetime, so you had better get started now.
I got you, dude! - Marina
Can’t. Stop. Watching.
Tonight I’m so exhausted. I’m happy and content but exhausted. Running with Jeannette and talking is maybe my favorite thing right now. She’s such great company and just a kick ass woman.
My body is so sore and it’s taking a lot of effort to even type from my phone laying down. Owwww those bar dips are killing me.
I chatted with her about why/ if she looks for an ex driving a particular kind of car. She looks too. It’s reassuring to know I’m not the only one. I think it’s nuts that a single double take, or one measly second on my drive to work has impacted my thoughts for three days now. But some exes just do that to you. They remind you. You think of how loved you felt, the laughs, the quirks. Love is funny that way. It makes you think of the good times. It makes you curious. I want to know how he’s doing. But I’ll always feel held back. It’s odd.
She’s so smart and I love her input. It means a lot to me that I can relate to her on such a weird subject (which is really starting to sound like stalking) that people never really talk about.
2/17/14 was a good day. Went for a long walk and got a little lost with a coworker after work. Ridiculously slow time but the exploration was worth it. Love days and nights like this.
Also, jimmy Fallon’s first Tonight Show aired. I hope to always remember how special and meaningful it was. Viva le YouTube that didn’t make sense but oh well.